TOO TIGHT? IS THAT IT?

Hi , its already 2am and i should really be sleeping rite now..

I am feverish.. My nose hurts and my chest is burning..

My head is spinning !!

I had a lil chat with my galfren just now.

She was telling me about her handsome korean wannabe friend which happened to like her..

HE IS SOOOO CUTE! huhu.. I have to admit it, I was so jealous!

This is getting really absurd. hihiks

I dont know why, but its like a bullet passing through my flesh!!!

Seeing my friends, girls especially, having their own guys..

I cant help but to be so jealous.

Why cant I have something like that?

I want something like that too.. I deserve it, maybe

I kept on thinking, hehehe.. So weird!

I always rejects the idea of couple romance, but I sooo want it right now..

Plus I am feverish, my mental and hormone balance r so damned! I feel like crying!ahaks

last few night theres this girl.. She charged that I have anorexic eating problem.

WTF lah. huhu just cause Im skinny , that doesnt mean Im anorexic. Hello??

Have you never heard about high metabolism thing???

Its not my fault that you cant fit ur junk in size S..

Pity you bitch

HOWEVER, I dont know how she does it, but her words really got me thinking.

When I was about to eat, I thought of her words. and i force myself to eat non stop!

Im so sad.. I am sad indeed!

So I have been eating non stop since then.

Every time my tummy gets hungry, I'd fill it in..

I dont follow the balanced diet or timing anymore.

It sux.. Knowing that people have problem seeing me. Seeing me as skinny I am, calling me names.. @_@ My self esteem drops down.. It does

Then.. hearing it again from my friends,about my physicality... well you know how it feels

This is so out of course.. huhu I cant even think straight..

Im exhausted and upset!

I hope I could get this over with.

I need support coz Im slipping away now..

Im afraid I might do something impulsive

Hope not huhu

For those who have the same issue as I am, just hold on.. I know its hard.. Lets just stay strong

They might mean no harm, so lets try to take it as a motivation. huh!

Keep reading.. Keep blogging :)

Much Love

It will always come back to you

Hi everyone, this is my first update for today

Just so you know, I am a girl that if possible, really do not want to bother anyone with my small problems.. Ive been tat girl lately..

A girl that would like to TRY to solve my tiny matters before asking people for help... and I am quite proud of myself cuz i was doing great.. heheeheeee until..

Until I own a lappy

An Aspire 4740 with windows 7.. huhu.. I dont rilly know about computers, honestly..

And i kept on bugging people about matters related to my lappymuluu..

I was so annoying till my mum proposed that I buy the DUMMIES book series. huhu

That was like a huge wake up call.. Since then, I kept it to myself..

Every time my lappy would turn into bluescreen, I could just wait until it started to reload again..

There is nothing much that I could do.. huhuks

Its really sad knowing that I am not even good at this.. I should be, but I am not.. So I kept on letting this blue screen crashes passed.

HOWEVER, something somewhere in my tiny conscious, FORCED me to ask around about this and do some reading about windows crashes.. To get this over with!

I always go to my bestfriend if I was having any problems with my lappy.. But somehow I felt so small to always go to him.. I was scared that he might thought I was taking advantage of him cause I know that is his NUMBER UNO DISLIKE!!

So I start to ask OTHER guys about this techno stuff.. I went to RAJA, he'd go " Apit kan tau, tanya la dia". huhuh.. Okay, lets try someone else... Then I asked Mirul , he goes "Apit lagi terer, if he doesnt know how to solve this, then I am even worse" the third guy , faeez.. and yes he also said the same thing "Syam kan tau, cuba tanya dia.. ko kan ada number dia"

GUYS, WHAT IM TRYING TO DO HERE IS TO NOT ASK APIT.. huhuks.. I always always always bother him with my lappyproblemo.. Sorry Apit.. huhu I know u are the most talented among em.. and this proves u are hehe.. but I was scared to ask because I know you already have your problems to fix .. I just don want to bug you *muAX* hihi

But at the end of the day, I am truly happy cause its proven , my bestfriend Apit is the best in handling this tech thing.. And he has the respect of many people..

I am so proud of you .. MUAXIES!

and I might go to you again and again ok, cause it will always take me back to you wherever I turn to... weheeee~

Friends? Are we?

Hey guys..

This is weird, 360degree weirdness @_@

Ive never ever ever updated my blog thrice a day!!

This proves how bored I am :(

Im so confused cuz i shudnt be bothered by this issue at all..

Im used to getting used to this..

BUT

This time,ITS CONFUSING!!!

I know i cudnt say all these words to him cuz he wudnt even listen to me right now..

Okay here goes nothing..

I dont understand sometimes, the way my friend chose to express his feelings..

His problems..

Yes i know, everybody has their own SPECIAL ways of solving their private matters..

and I have no right to step in.. What am I to him?

I am just a worried friend..

Okay , what im suggesting here is, try to loosen up a bit

Put ur guards down for awhile..

Tell me whats wrong.. Or just tell any of ur bf's about whats bothering u..

U'll feel better I think..

And we, ur friends wud stop ourselves from being judgemental towards u..

NO OFFENCE , but if u keep on doing this, it'll be harder next time

Just open up :) Try it once in awhile

Kepergian..Absence makes the heart grow fonder..

Selalu aku ingatkan diri , tabah, cekal...
Aku fikir aku teguh tanpa teman..
tapi bila satu per satu mula pergi, hati terasa sakit

Arif dapat tawaran PLKN siri kedua dan perlu lapor diri hari ini
28MARCH2010..
Adda dah masuk Taylor's, orientasi hari ini
28MARCH2010
Nita dapat tawaran Nirwana :(

Im sad cuz this is the end of us as high school students
We used to be so together all the time..
Giant day out together, Jusco day out together, jamming together
We did almost everytg together these few months

But now its all gonna change
Our lives as college student begins..
Everybody follows their own path..
Its truly a wake up call when i received Adda's sms
"im here in KL "
she's gone :( seems like yesterday when we hung out together :(
But i am happy for our memories..
All the memories will remain as one of the best chapters of my life
Thanks for being my friends
Syuhada, Khairul Arif, Shanita , Shafeeq Hisyam, Danial, Miul

I will always love each n everyone of u <3>
All the best in your future undertakings